a flash in the pan ... promising at the start but then disappointing
I've been studying English for 14 years for the express purpose of communicating with people. I took up learning English at the age of 28 after getting married, so expanding my world with the language dramatically, such as going abroad or entering a college, wasn't my viable option. I just enjoyed immersing in foreign language world and felt happy to take English ability tests to make it clear where I was.
The most promising achievement to me was to pass all of the grade of "STEP Test," an abbreviation of "The Society for Testing English Proficiency." I actually had a dream to give it a try for a while, but the passion passed all too soon. I don't know why. Maybe the test looked like a flash in the pan to me because, as I mentioned, conquering the English ability tests was not my only aim. Maybe I'm too timid to encourage myself, having a sense of foreboding. It has been five years since I took the test and passed the pre-first grade of it. Is it high time to rouse myself? It'd be wonderful to climb up the hill. Passing all of the test might be something called a flash in the pan, but making an effort to see the flash will be my greatest pleasure in life.