I was supposed to visit one of my English fellows today, but I missed
out. That was because my husband took a day off. When I sent an email last week to convey how sorry I was for being absent, she kindly showed deep understanding and said "Your family comes first, don't worry."
I used to experience feelings of confusion when I 1) was torn
between my friends and my family. I often took my family when I had a very tight schedule. Sometimes two or three plans that I made happened to occur at the same time, and in that case, most of the time I asked my friends to be flexible. I knew some of my friends were offended by my attitude, but they never said 2) to me that I was rude
I should have kept my word and made an effort to stick with
plan that I made first. Yes, I know it's perfectly right. But I cannot seem to leave my family due to my personal interests or appointments. I know my family can live without me for a day or so, but I know that I'll end up feeling a bit uneasy and sorry. Don't bother to say that I'm weird. I know it better than you all... Because of my strange tendency, I feel quite relieved when I hear somebody saying "No need to worry. Family comes first." ^^
1) felt torn ... がベター
2) so to me directly ... がベター